Tuesday, March 30, 2010 / 11:57 PM
well its another day :D yesterday went down to simei ITE for gvss sports heats... and it was kinda terrible. either my standards too high or my cadets today blur blur... or i nv teach them good enough (kinda impossible today almost all are competitors?) yea so kinda disappointed... no initiative, sluggish movement, no sense of urgency and more... haiz
well kinda pissed of not just only bout this but also with the students... frankly speaking i think that greenview student are getting worst... either the generation got problem or the parents nv teach them properly not all but some... well people are just taking things for granted... st john ppl are first aiders, not maids. service for mankind does not mean that we are maids... we are not a bunch of ppl that when you need you use and after that use finish oready you throw... i just think that there is no respect for other CCA in greenview at all? thats my point of view ba y must it be like this? cant there be like a mutual respect or a basic respect? everything seems to be screwed up, down, left, right, upside down. well some ppl just thinks that they are damm good then so be it. you want to do then let you do lor any problem is you kenna mah oso not me. its not a very positive thinking but too bad... y cant you just let us do our job? and come and kaypoh? or from what i see is that you are just trying to eat "tofu"? and since the casualty dont mind then so be it lor.. some ppl just dont understand thing... too bad lor thats life haha life is like that.
well today went for commendation day rehersal and GOOD JOB kids :D well done coz today's performance is kinda good and i'll rate it 7.5/10 haha it can be better with more training i think :D well the parade sequence or procedure or whatever its called seems to be "unique" haha well i really hope that st john can be GOH one day if we have enough people :D haha
well another think kinda piss me off is having ppl to be having double standards treating ppl differently and bootlicking... need to see tok to who and woth who then act differently... it is like so obvious can... well alot of times it just seems like you are lying but ppl give you the benefit of adult and diam diam listen lo. got really happen not we oso dunno mah. there are also ppl who goes "cher 1 more mark can?", "cher y like that wrong meh?", "i tod this", "i tod that", "oh really? i dont knw leh can dont minus mark?". well some ppl are just good with their language and they use it to the fullest potential HAHA and if you got a problem with me then say so. dont hide behind and talk bad bout others. be like a man face talk or sorts things out. dont be a hypocrite it totally disgust me... hope i do not have to see you so often in the times to come :D
well the world is getting worst and worst... haiz i really dont know who can i like trust? no wonder the earth is getting back on humans creating so many earthquake and terrible weather creating havoc. mother nature is angry with humans haha believe it or not :D well i oso cant really comment much coz i not that perfect as well coz i have my own bad points and i am still changing for the better~~~
well to end off i can only say that life is like that 守好自己,才管别人 life is never always fair reality sometime hurts and its painful. there is not much things that we can do or control only to change our mindset and bluff ourself so that it is less painful becoz crying does not really help solve the problem, it only expresses sadness. positive thinking seems to be excaping from reality but ppl need to sometime.
Monday, March 29, 2010 / 10:40 PM
haha the previous post is for kenneth haha now this is for myself to really update it haha... well this month seems like to be boring ... really boring :D i think its time for me to change new skin soon tooo :D
well first things first is that my dear NC2 did well and got the hightest in FA :D haha beat all the other schools and it kinda shocked me at first bt i feel that they deserve it :D spending so much time on the FA manual and never ending cases :D haha but however they did not get any medal even though they got first for FA intermediate case. Coz thier FD and HN kinda haha you know... well i think they could have gotten at least a medal back if all their moments during training which were perfect join together...
well it never happpen anyway coz nothing is perfect in the world. anyway other corp were seems to be not doing that well either. well i kinda feel guilty too. coz i think thats for competition its never the cadets fault if they dont perform coz they are just like a blank piece of paper and is we instructor who actually draws and write on this paper to fill them up, and the way they perform will be how well i trained them. like how parents train thier kids... well kinda regret this and that but i swear to train them better next year :D kinda have lots of things to say but lazy type haha ... the most guilty things is that they wrote letters to me saying their sorry for not performing well and stuff makes me even more guilty... but there is nothin that we can do now too... only to look forward to next year. it sucks when you have really good cadets so hardworking and stuff to train and yet like dint relly cherish it due to inexperience if not they could have goten a medal...haiz ... :(
well going to the next thinig is my new lappy :D well i got my new lappy and is currently using it now to update it haha... well getting a new lappy is suppose to be happy but its kinda fustrating when i got this... quarrelling with my mum as usual over almost everything and now my lappy... yes it is my fault that i cause my last lappy to be stoled last year coz sme idiot took it but its already stoled what do you want me to do ? and keep saying all sorts of nasty stuff making me even more pissed and beating around the bush.... tell you that i need 1 so that it will be more convinent for me to use other than using the house desktop which is like so slow with such low ram and low processor.... how to do my school stuff tried it for 1 and a half semester and i kinda like almost died not having enough time completing my stuff...
my mum just dont understand and keep scolding here and there at suntec untill i dont want to tok to her... coz what ever i say she just dont understand and just make things worst. tell her its not compulsory to have a laptop but it will benefit me by make my life easier she dont understand.... tell her house computer very slow very difficult to use then she say what house computer cannot use meh oso nwever spil why cannot use... tell you slow oready dont understand ah? damian cam up my hse 1 day and i think he understand the slowness of my desktop haha only ppl who have seen how slow it is will understand...
then after i ignored her then she allow me to buy then i tell her that i want to buy my old 1 back then she dont allow say too expensive ... like WTF, and gave me a budget of $1000 and its like hello another $299 can get me a lappy thats is like so much better lor intherms of the processor, ram, graphics and stuff. tell my mum dont understand still down ther in her own world being stubborn and not listening as usual... and in the end i got this dell lappy better then dont have... at least spoil, got ppl come my house and fix haha no need send ther and repair haha
and now the next problem ... as usual she is in her own world and in ther own thinking... scolding and complaining that i am causing the rise in electricity bill... ellow the bill haven come like you know like that... although outside got meter but like you got go chk like that and like i the only 1 using electricity like that... KPKB and twisting the fact here and there.... yes i am sticking to my laptop all day but even if i dont my laptop, i will still use my house desktop what holiday njothing to do oso... definately will rise 1 what even i dont use my desktop or laptop i will go watch tv what... what else can i do ? either way, i will still consume electricity more than often what... then i go out and dont use electricity then say i everytime go out and play... ellow i go out is for SJ stuff lor and holiday dont do out with friends then stick at home and admire the walls meh ?
well i just give up typing futhermore bout me and my mum quarrelling... feels that its meaningless
well next thing is that these few days , i have been preparing lectures for my dear charlie and planning their sec 1 camp and stuff... futhermore i am also watching anime as usual and now going back to watching taiwanese drama haha and kinda cleared 海派甜心 oready haha now watching autumn's concerto... and dont know whats next after this haha
well going back to my mum issue is that she is asking me to go and find job which i dont want coz i already have a job just that one of the outlets close down and the some staff are transfered over to safra and i now go no slots to work temporary... tel her i dont want to find job oso scold say i waste time at home... in the first place i dont want to find a job and work for 1 more month and quit... who woud want to hire me too... and if i were to get a job then after i start school how to work 2 job when i only have weekends to work... aiyah i shall stop here and stop complaining coz it does not help...
well still got alot to say but mum came back le and there she goes scolding again gotta shut ofmy lappy soon le haha :D
As instructed by my dear kenneth i update my blog :D i am feeling shitty like everyone. ok updated :D